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well, my dearest meii has finally blogged.
BUT, it's like so SHORT can!!!
wei! I was expecting a really long one ya know?
:(
so sadded lah.
bleahs.
whatever.
but you blogged today, so i cant bombard you with smses to scold you.
arww..

heh.
terrible start of term 3 for me.
I was late today.
and guess what?
I'm like seconds from not being a late-comer!!
ARGH!

fine.
second time this year.
and today is the start of a new term only!!
like whoa, bad start lah.
:(

you know why i was late?
my darn hair.
so difficult to tie.
firstly, like mongying, i had a hard time tying my hair.
cos it's been a long time since i tied my hair.
FOUR weeks. (:
so i lost the art of tying my hair.
HAHAHHA.

secondly, i cut my hair 2weeks ago.
and i had some really short hair.
and it's like so hard for me to tie my hair NEATLY.
had to waste 2 rubber bands lor!
imagine how many times i tied and remove my hairband?
ugh!
spent at least 10mins on this pathetic head.
bleahs.
thats very long.
:(

but anyways, after school, did some math with xian and ying at kfc.
hoho.
i was thinking abt this qn for like so long but it turned out to be so so so SO easy lor.
like huh? what was i thinking abt lah.
think until so complicated.
make things worse only.
haha.

then just now got tuition.
ooh, terrible.
BUCK UP BUCK UP!!!
xD

nevermind, i promised myself that from today onwards i will do some math everyday.
:)
and this, i think i dont think i'll fail to do it ba.
MAYBE once or twice in a fortnight, i might give it a miss lah.
but yeah, I WILL DO IT!
teehee.
:D

mark my words.
:)

(uh oh, trying to get myself killed. dont kill me if i break it)

lalala...
so i've done quite alot of math today.
ugh.
I'm going to pack my stuff later.
and yup, dont think i'll be doing anymore work.
gotta catch some sleep.

eeks.
I've yet to get accustomed to waking up early again.
BOO.

tomorrow's lessons are a real bore.
Geography.
PE! (taking height and weight i guess) haha
PHYSICS. x( this makes me sleep mann.
HISTORY?!!?! (0% interest in this subj)
ENGLISH!!! (im gonna say yay, with a sacarstic tone cos it's so boring)
CHINESE (like BOO loh, because chinese Os are long over already, except for the ORAL part)

eeks, my chinese oral sucks.
i listen and think in english then i translate my thoughts.
oooh, and i tend to add a lot of words like:
errr...
yah...
lor...
umm..
and so on and so forth.
tsktsk. (:

I aced my chinese orals okay?
HAHA.
what a joke.
x)

okay, i shant be negative.
think positively.
:)
well, chinese lessons are reduced to ONLY TWO periods per week!
WOOHOO!

but i dont like commont test to be in the middle of the week.
it's on thursday.
just dont like it lah.
ahaha dont ask me why.

gee.
i said i wanted to post photos right?
haha, but till now i havent done so.
well, i'll leave that for weekends.
:)
weekdays are just plain typed-out blog entries.
hehe.
loading is slow.

so sad.
my voodoo doll's abit spoilt.
:(
part of the yarn(?) are loose already.
im so worried that everything will just come off, leaving one whole string of blue sting, a needle and a heart.
:/

alright.
I guess i've to go.

take care people!
:)

# Don't let situations rule over you, you have the power to change it.

HELLO. xD
wow.
today nearly dozed off during svc sia.
:(
but didnt lah, just felt really drowsy and my eyes kept blinking. that's all.
ok lah. jot notes to keep myself awake lor.
:D
heh.

alright.
so i'm quite dazed today.
as in, I'm like having this blur look on my face.
lack of sleep ma.
that's why...
:)

bleahs.
nevermind, i told myself that i have to sleep early today.
:)
but now that i'm facing the computer, all the tiredness are gone.
HOHO.
x) the computer keeps me awake.

then after svc ended, we went bedok interchange de hawker centre to eat and fellowship.
haha.
then after that went arnd the place and stoned for awhile until aileen called lor.
cos she wanted to go home tgt with me.
haha. (:
so sad la, her hp died on her today.
then she had a hard time finding her cg.
dont know what happen to her phone also lah.
aiyah, den i met up with her and some of her cg members.
to go home lor.
erm, nope.
only me and aileen go home only.
the 3 brothers (weichuan,tommy,junming) went to sim lim sq(?) to get sth.
they ask whether i wanna go, but since aileen dont wanna go, then i never go also lor.
HAHA.
see aileen, i so good, pei ni hui jia. (:
hehe.

then go home stoned for a moment then mum called.
and im kena forced to go down to have my dinner.
why did i use the word 'force' ?
because i dont wanna go downstairs again.
SIGHS.
but no choice lah.
x(

so had dinner at mac.
and came home to rot.
and now i'm done rotting, so I'm going off to pack my schoolbag.

again i say, I DONT WANT SCHOOL TO RE-OPEN.
x(

gosh.
i spent 5hours doing THREE birthday cards.
and they are all for n290!!!
HAHA.
:D

i can work full time for them liao lor.
O.o
did 4 cards for them already.
and i think it's FOUR, AND STILL COUNTING.
hoho.
xD
cool huh?

whoa tiring leh.
sorry ah, the first card i did VERY VERY not nice.
SO SORRY jian hui.
:(
and boiboi de card, very hard to draw, cos i dont know what to decorate it with!!
AHHHH!!~
no lah, i think i started off with the wrong choice of font for his name lah, thats why.
SORRY.

second was serene's.
her's looked better.
BUT STILL, im not satisfied with my work.
bleahs.
so sad.
but serene, dont be even sadder den me k?
smiles. (:

and finally, third card.
i got the hang of doing cards le, so third card im very happy with it.
doreen ng's card.
:)
aiyah, how.
later they show all 3 together.
WOW.
contrast sia.

really..
the difference is VERY VERY BIG.
and now my head feels so heavy.
dont know why, just now came home from outing already like that sia.
:(

think i havent had enough sleep ba?
i hope i wont doze off during service later.
im going to sleep for 2hours only.
SIGHS.
2hours?
i buay tahan lah.
maybe i'll be sleeping like a pig once i come home from service.
feeling abit feverish also.
ugh!

alrights.
since im done, i should go and sleep le.
goodnite folks!
xD

aileen, be sure that im going to torture you for the next 3 weeks.
HAHA.
no lah, just joking.
:)
i still love you yeah? (:
HUGS! ;

<3s!
GOODNIGHT.

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你泪流心痛
长大后我们越来越远
分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面
熟悉微笑的脸

回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼就能够感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了

回忆起我们小时后
闭上眼就能够感受
站在窗前跟你说了晚安就走
离开了我们小时候
现在的你不在想我这个时候我了了

- 我们小时候 by TANK (:


gee.
been listening to this song alot lately.
another of tank's song that i like is 狙击手 (:
well anyway, back to what i was saying..
erm.. oh! yeah..
BUT, i dont have that song in my computer.
so how do i listen?
go baidu to listen lor
haha.
BUT BUT BUT, i no longer have to do that le!

why?
because my lovely Aileen sent the song to me liao.
HAHA.
LOVE you girl! (:

lol, i love all who sent me songs.
ytd, i loved yuling.
today i love aileen.
tomorrow? I dont know who liao.
HAHA.
so if you feel that i dont care or love you, send me songs.
muahahaha.
:D i'll love you to bits.
heh.
promise you that.

cos i'm dying to flood my computer with songs.
lost quite some songs when i reformatted my computer.
argh.
hate it when i reformat my computer.
but it's a must lah.
so no choice.
:(

everytime i reformat, i'd forget to save something, so i'll end up losing something lor.
most of the time, they're songs lah.
ahh, so whatever lah. songs can get from other people still..
haha so nevermind.

had cgm in church just now.
SUPERMAN.
:)

pastor zhuang shared about his life.
and i was like about to cry when i heard it.
first time heard him sharing about that.
so yeah..
well, ying didnt go.
her mum doesnt allow ba?
haii. but nevermind, i believe slowly, she'll let you come de lah.
:)

that girl ah, good timing sia.
smsed EXACTLY at the point when i took my phone out after the service ended.
whoa. girl, you got qian li yan ah?
can see i take out my phone?
HAHA.
:D

girl, never blog huh?
bluff jie ah?
:(
so sad.
haha, no lah, just joking.
remember wor, i'm always here to let you chop my ears off for a moment. (:
haha get what i mean ba?
i think so lah, you so clever.
tsktsk.
clever jie got clever mei. (:
LOL.

drats.
i STOPPED the song instead of dragging the thing to the start of the song.
now the song has to buffer and download all over again!!!
ugh!

oh, havent burn my CROSS album into my computer yet.
no wonder..
haha.
:)

ahh, finally..
the song is ready.. (:
umm, maybe not.
went back to buffering again.
SIGHS.
:(

tmr going out with my mum.
if im not wrong, it's marina square ba.
that's why cannot help Aileen in making THREE cards.
SORRY my dearest! :(
your next card i confirm help you with it okay?
sorry sorry.

but as i've said, evening MAYBE can help you.
i tmr then contact her ba.
nidta ask my mum first.
:)

ohmigosh.
and she won 2 tickets to tank's mini concert at K UNION tmr loh!
woah. she anyhow sms into yes93.3 ytd den she won the tickets.
haha, but now nobody accompany her to the concert.
=X

girl, use my method.
HAHA.
(i told her to announce it on msn)
LOL.

alright.
so my brother wont be home tmr.
from 815am onwards.
till abt 4 plus?
he's going to some dont know what trip lah.
thats why.

wellwell, im gonna stop here.
oh, i wanted to post the pictures i've taken lately.
but haii.
lazy lah.
maybe tmr ba..

just some random pictures only lah.
nothing much for you to speculate about.
haha.
it's just the 2 chalet pictures taken with aileen and xiuting and val.
OH!
VAL just flew off to london if im not wrong.
ahhhh!!~

alright.
shall do the posting tmr.
:)

nite.

YO!
:)

i'm here blogging again.
haha.
dont know when i'll stop this habit.
drats, this is eating into my time.
well, but you know, i cant stop.
sighs.

tmr's the combined cgm in church.
mongying might be coming.
i hope she does.
anw, she's been asking to see how the church building in jurong west looks like.
so yeah, tmr got chance to let her see le.
since she saw expo de auditorium twice already..
yups.

haha.
so just have to wait for her reply ba.
:)

school holidays are coming to an end.
and i DONT LIKE IT.
rarr.
it's back to those studying days.
i dont want school to reopen because Os would be nearer.
UGH!

what can i do?
sighs.

anyway, i kindda packed my room le.
looks ABIT neater now.
especially the area under my computer.
i used to stack 3piles of books and files over there.
now they're all in a box.
neat! (:

and that box is really heavy you know?
i cant lift it up lor.
not even like lift up one side of the box.
can lah, but abit only lor.
hmm, it's either i've got no strength or that box really is heavy.
haha.
:D
i really think it's the latter.
really.
hey, dont look down on me okay.
that box really is heavy!

haha, i'm blogging and chatting at the same time.
so blog very slow sia.
waiting for the songs that yuling is sending to me.
slow sia.
i think she put alot of songs inside the folder.
LOL.
thankyou my dearest! (:

also waiting for mongying to come back online.
erm, of cos if she doesnt, i'll be sms-ing her before i sleep la.
yups.

i'm playing neopets at the same time too.
gosh.
ruyin has stopped playing!
and i should too!!!
ahhh!~
cham la.
i ask her to study during exam period.
now exams over le, im slacking like nobody's business.
someone, come and pinch me and slap me and wake me up.
please. (:

alright.
i shall stop le.

eeks.
the sms tone just made me jump.
haha.

bye! (:


oh oh oh!
AND I'M MISSING CHILDREN'S CHURCH ALOT!
arwww...
:)

<3 them.

WOOHOO!~
this blogskin is gonna stay here, for until Os is over. (i hope!)
haha. (:
well, i'm gonna get started with mugging already.
hmm..
again, i hope i really do yea?
o, and i'll link all you people soon.
:)

mum's signed me up for amath and emath tuition classes at chec.
ugh.
i dont like tuition in classes lah.
bleahs.
but whatever. i'll just have to go.
to please her huh?
:)
but of cos, i'll try to make it a fruitful trip.
cos i dont wanna waste my time travelling there just to sit on those chairs and daydream.
HAHA.
alright.
classes are starting in july, i think.
yups.
so, right now, i'll just wait for their call?

eeks.
having tummyache again.
BLEAHS.
=X
owwww...

sighs.

trying to get my computer back to the way it was before.
as in, i'm getting all those songs and pictures and everything else back into my computer.
haha. quite tedious ya know!
ugh!
getting really sian of putting so many different cds into the drive.

ahh, but what to do?
computer was infested with loads of pests.
i had to reformat the computer.
and so..
ended up like this lor.
haii...
but nevermind, at least i fixed the computer.
*pats myself on the shoulder*
:D

and i hope this thing doesnt gimme any more problems.
if not..
grrr...

alright.
my back is also aching.
i dont know why.
:(
every part of me is aching.
AHHH, RARR..

whatever it is, im having a hard time sitting down.
im slouching right now.
picture this.
haha, my butt's at the end of the chair. (:
like im gonna fall of the chair any minute.
hurhur.
but that's how i can stop that ache.
rahh.
i'll just try to ignore that pain. (:

hmm.
been quite addicted to playing neopets too.
ooh..
it's been a long time huh?
neopets.
hmm, i doubt any of my friends still visit that web.
oh oh oh!
i know, except my dearest ruyin!
;)
girl, have you earned you million neopoints?

sheesh.
she had a goal.
she wanted to earn a million NP in every year.
whoa.
cool goal huh?
i want that too.
girl, care to share half of your earnings?
HAHAHA!

i'm evil la, cant you see?
muahahaha.
>=)

yeaps.
so i guess i'll just stop blogging here huh?
ohmigosh. i blog one whole chunk of crap mann.
ugh!

oh, and i've to start practising waking up early already.
if not, i'd have a hard time waking up on monday, when school reopens.
:)

so, tata!!
:D
<3!

Thats it.
I've had enough.

It doesnt mean that I havent been doing my homework if you dont see me doing so.
Neither does it mean that I'm playing all the while if you see me doing so when you come back home.
(!)

So what if you see me at the computer when you come back home?
You wont know how long I've been there.
Stop accusing me lah.
I HATE ACCUSATIONS okay?

sighs.
well enough complaining about my dad.
cause it's not his fault aniway.
I admit i am lazy, too.
arw..
HAII.

well.
the following things im gonna say will just be some self reflection.
:)
cause im just feeling kindda pissed about myself.
really pissed.
and i jus dont understand certain things.
and i cant help wondering about all the what if ..
what if i did this instead of that.
what if i had chosen this instead of that.
what if i blablablah and blah on...

what if i really locked myself in the room the whole day and study.
would i really get good grades?
will i really do well?
will my grades improve?

oh well.
i dont know.
cos it's now just too late to MUG, really hard.
yes, hard. (:

began thinking back about the time when i got my streaming results.
was posted to only the worse course you can ever get in kranji.
and it's class 3A.
BUT,
the next day, i got news from a teacher that i could get into 3B also.
I was happy and yet, sad or confused, you can say.
or maybe, a 'lil bit of both.
getting in 3B would mean i'm in a better class, studying double PURE science.
and science, you can say, is my favourite subject. (:
and so i guess it wouldnt be hard coping with double pure science.
in fact, i even thought about doing triple pure.
if my abilities allowed. (as in all my other subjects scored high enough to get into triple science)
but i couldnt.
sighs.
sad huh?

and i had to make a decision on going to 3A or 3B.
with 3A studying only SUB-SCIENCE.
AND and AND, plenty of humanities.
(ugh, does studying more of humanities make you more human? if not, why so much humanities?!)
what lah, like i love to study humanities.
blueks.
i hate humanities lah.
i sucked at that.
dang. science still rock.
but look at my results now, my science aint any better than the rest of my subjects.
ok.
back to what i was saying..

so well, in the end i made a choice to study in 3A.
after much consideration.
and i regretted(?) what i chose that time.
i chose 3A instead of the better class.
because of the subject combi I had to take in 3B.
the combined humanities were elect hist and SS.
and nothing else.
so what's the big problem right?
my SS and history sucks lah.
thats why.
right from sec1 till now, i havent passed my history before.
(!)
oh, like WOW huh?

yeah.
so i decided to take an additional PURE GEOG in 3A.
cos my geog was, okay lah. (:
but..
haii..
nevermind.

and posting results came out.
guess what?
I'm still posted to 3B!
like huh? why?
should have taken that as a sign that i belong to 3B huh?
well, i appealed to DROP to 3A.
like so funny huh?
everyone's trying so desperately to go to a better class and yet, i wanted to DROP to 3A.
say wow lah. (:
haha.

and i my appeal was accepted easily. (i guess?)
and when i was re-posted to 3A, i told myself that i'm gonna be one of the top in 3A.
BECAUSE,
i have the abilities to enter 3B!
and what were the things that i had wanted to achieve at that point of time?
- be top15 in class. (:
- to be no.1 in biology class! (!!!)
- to be top12 for science in my ppr results.
- to score at least a b3 for my pure geog.

and so on and so forth.
but these are basically the ones that i desperately want to get lah.
so yeah..
(and STOP that irritating new email message from Zorpia lah!)
irritating thing. it kept popping out before i typed that sentence.
wow, my typing works wonders.
alright.
crap.

and guess what?
i achieved none of those dreams, that i had before year 2005 started.
BOO, huh?
well, i guess i was complacent and lazy lah.
but i really went too far from what i wanted.
very very far-off.

in my bio class, i've never topped the class before.
NEVER.
and that explains why i'm NEVER satisfied with my biology results.
even when it's high or beyond what i expected, i'll never be happy.
and huixian's always like saying, your bio results so high liao, you sad for what?
haii.
and that's why.
i'll never be happy till i top in bio.
i know i can do it.
i've even come close to the top in class by just around 2 marks or so.
and i'm even more depressed when i get that score.
and i dont care.
I'M STILL GOING TO TOP THE CLASS FOR BIOLOGY.
i guess that's the only dream that stays.
the rest like getting top15 and so on..
I've thrown them aside for as long as i can remember.
I've given up hope on them.
cause i dont think i can do it in such a short period of time.
not ever.

and so i planned to study hard after last year's end year results came out.
i even set my targets for Os.
and here goes my target.
o, PLS, DONT BE SHOCKED.
english: B3
chinese: A2
emath: A1/A2
amath: b3
phy/bio: A1
ss/hist: c5
pure geog: A1/A2!!

L1R5 target: 13. (:
i know it doesnt tally with the above grades.
but my target is 13.
and look at what my L1R5 is right now.
above 30.
and even above 35!
L1R4?
haii...
dont want to think about it lah.
so depressing lor.
ah, whatever right?

people still aint feeling the O level stress.
i guess maybe it's because of the class that im in?
i'm beginning to think it really does matter if you're with hardworking people all the time.
they make you wanna study.
really.
i can bet that those people in other classes are already into the O level mood.
mugging mode.
HAHA, what a joke to say that most of my class hadnt started revising.
and many are still compromising at the situation.
many are still complacent.
many are still playing and slacking around.
including me, and my bunch of friends. (i think?)
cos like me, they always plan to study but end up not doing it.
we are all the same.

but they always say that i study until very hiong if i really want to study.
and i agree with them, ABIT.
yes, just a 'lil teeny weeny bit.
like last year's end of year exams.
i really studied like crazy because i had high hopes on myself.
i studied late into the night.
most of the time till 2-3am in the morning.
and i studied like hell for my amath ya know?
i didnt stopped doing math until it was near 4am!
i remembered because that was the first time i was so so engrossed in doing math.
but still, that didnt get me a PASS in my amath.

so i had to retake my amath in december lor.
and again, i did not sleep until 430am.
i was mugging damn hard.
and i was so so afraid that i would fail and that i'd have to drop amath.
really worried back then.
but when mr heng told me that i did quite well, (in which i still dont know how well it is) i was like so happy.
my effort finally paid off huh?

sighs.
thinking back.
im still trying hard to find the thing that pushes me to study so hard for my end year exams.
i averaged around the B4 standard for end year.
and i did improved.
and i thought that drive would keep me going till Os is over.
but i was wrong.
and now i'm far from what i want to get.

many have asked what i wanted to be or where i want to go after my Os.
poly or JC.
and i have no answer to that.
im clueless.
JC?
would it be too stressful for me?
becos im taking sub-science now, i heard that it's gonna be quite hard to cope with JC subjects.
so, what about poly?
wide range of courses, and i dont know what exactly each can help me and what each course will offer.
if only somebody can enlighten me on them..
well, if i were to go to a JC, that would be SAJC. (?)
but it's kindda far i think.
yes, really far.
i just dont know why.
SAJC keeps coming to my mind when i think of a JC.
poly?
well...
i dont know which poly i wanna go if i were to go into one.
like i've said, i dont know what i can study over there.
but all i know, it's either gonna be SP or NP.
that's it.
unless what i want, these 2 poly doesnt offer the course.
then, i've got no choice lah.
but most prob, i think they do.
and if i go to a poly, the course i take would definitely be some science course. (:
hmmm...

and it's getting really hard and competitive to enter a poly.
sighs.

I HAVE TO WORK HARD.
girl, study hard leh.
dont disappoint those people who had high hopes on you.
including myself.
:(

and i have many other thoughts that's bugging me.
I just wished someone would know what i'm thinking and would be able to help me.
without me having to say them all out.
but i guess it's not possible.

God, where are You.
It seems that i've lost You for some reason.
and i dont know what.
I long for Your touch.
Your voice.

I guess I'm drifting away.

somehow, I still held on.
but not for long.
i'll lose that strength.

and all the above are just ramblings of a lazy student's life.
ME. (:

Interesting site that I chanced upon this afternoon.
Have fun laughing at those silly words that i never knew existed. (erm, only some, cos some of them... erm, well, i'm guilty of it.)

http://twitionary.blogspot.com

Enjoy.
:)

BLAH.
went out with my mum and my relatives.
we went shopping for awhile and went buffet-ing for dinner.
at holiday inn.
near cuppage plaze.
yups.

hmm.
the food was not bad la.
BUT, i was having having a terrible day earlier before.
stomachache.
ARGH.
so, i went to the toilet for 4 times while i was outside with them.
:(
terrible.
dont know why like that leh.
rarr..

so it made me ate lesser of what i could have eaten when im well.
boo.
so money spent was..
erm, quite wasted for me.
cos i could have helped to eat more.
HAHA!
what a lame thing to say.
x) lol.

yea, and i'll be going for service in another few hour's time.
looking forward to a great service.
:) i know you do too, right?
haha.

alright.
and so it's fathers' day tomorrow.
o, erm, maybe, TODAY.
so...
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY to all fathers. (:
daddy, you rock okay?
even though sometimes..
im irritated by certain things you do or say.
BUT STILL, i love you alright?
haha, muacks! (:
o^.^o

sighs.
dont know if they're going to sentosa next week or not sia.
grrr...
i want to go.
but i dont know if i'll be allowed to go.
ARGH.
so, the best would be, no sentosa outing?
HAHA.
ahh, wadever.
let's just hope there will be and i'll be able to go.
well, angela wont be able to go.
so i guess they wont want to go anymore, is it?
haha.

okay, i shall stop making wild guesses.
crap la.

so it's nearing 2am in the morning.
and it's time i should get some sleep.
stomach's feeling much better.
but still feeling abit weird.
haha.
pray that it'd be all well when i wake up, yeah?
(:

going home with my darling AILEEN after service.
haha. when i saw her sms, i was like so shocked.
so funny.
cos she seldom will sms me say wanna go home with me together de.
or you can say she never SMS me to say that before.
lol.
but nevermind. (:

o, right now, i have 2cds that i want to buy!
SUN's latest album(the white version)
AND
JY's album!!
ahhh!! i want i want!!!
x)
mum, did you hear me?
haha. hope she can buy sun's cd la.
then i dont have to spend money on 2cds.
hoho.
that can save me at least $20. (:

bah. It's the holidays, and im not saving any money during the holidays.
SAD ah.
:(
haha.
i really must get to sleep now.

once again,
HAPPY PAPA DAY. (:

goodnight to you.
goodnight to me.
goodnight to him.
goodnight to her.
goodnight to them.
goodnight to everyone.
x)


:) kisses;

wow.
im still not asleep yet.
hoho.
hope my parents dont wake up and catch me at the computer.
=X

gonna study tomorrow.
as in today.
as in later.
haha.
:)
when i wake up in the morning la.
lol.
ya, study study study.
haii. sian ar.
but no choice.
:(

hurhur.
i think really have to buck up la.
but i still lack that something which drives me to study like crazy.
and i dont know what is it, still.
boo.

o wadever it is, im going to get some rest le.
dont wish to get into trouble with my dad.
dont want him to scold and i'll just lose my temper and spoil my mood somehow.
so im going to sleep.

nitenite.
:)

说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验
我们的约定

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

我想他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了


约定 -by 光良

:)

BAM!
guess what?
I finally did some math today.
haha!
AILEEN, see this? I STUDIED ok?
:)

gee. I wonder when I'm gonna start REVISING for my Os.
I hope I'd be doing that soon. yea?
heh.
:D

well, went for a haircut today.
not too good, not too bad.
acceptable.
haha. ;)

so erm..
having cellgroup tmr.
at beeleng's house.
haii, my mum still dont allow us to use the house for cellgroup.
SIGHS.
that's why we ended up at beeleng's house.
if im not wrong, charlene's overseas.
that's why..
haii..

dont know how's their planning for the sentosa trip.
i dont even know if i can go.
sighs.
if i cant go, den just too bad then..
x(

alrights, i guess there's nothing much for me to blog about.
since it's the holidays..
yups. and so i think i should be back on the desk bed doing my math sums ba.
yup, you've got it right.
I'm lying on my bed to do my math.
hoho. :D
o, pls dont kill me ah!!
:)

sigh.
been kindda hot-headed these days.
ever since mid year exams?
is it the stress or what?
i doubt so.
cause i'm the least worried about it.
i dont sense any urgency to study la.
really.
if i have stress, then it's probably because im feeling stressed at the fact that im not having the urge to want to study.

bah. wadever it is.
i just dont understand why i still cannot put in tonnes of effort into studying.
ytd aileen told me something.
and haii...

it's like so many pairs of eyes are watching me.
looking at me, whether im studying or not.
whether im studying HARD enough or not.
putting in enough effort or not.
sigh.
i dont think i did, i i dont think i will ever do so.
well, maybe i will, but only when Os is just weeks away?
or maybe DAYS even.
haii..

It just seems that no matter how hard i try to study, the results are always the same.
sometimes i really wonder why.
do i lack motivation or effort or brains?
i really really want to prove everyone wrong.

i wanted to LOCK myself in the room and study till i go crazy when my mum was ratting all about me not studying hard enough and everything when i got back my mid year results.
yes, you've heard it right.
LOCK MYSELF IN THE ROOM AND STUDY TILL I GO MAD.
i even told myself that i'd just study and study the whole day in my room.
no TV, no nothing.
just to SHOW my parents that i DID study.
just to defy them in a good way.
but whatever.
all my plans just got washed away.
I'm not studying hard enough during the holidays.
but maybe it's because my holidays has just started only?
first 2 weeks were occupied by lessons.
and so third week has just begun.

pissed by my own actions.
shed tears many times this year.
sometimes, for no particular reason.
i have no idea why.

i guess i'm just keeping too much to myself.
way too much...

WHOA, FINALLY!!!
I'm able to blog!!!
(:

I saved this entry long long ago, waiting for my com to be okay for me to blog.
HAha!
And, this is about...


EMERGE 2006
Friday, 2 June 2006
went for the night session of emerge today.
wow. i tell you, it's jam packed with lots of good stuff.
im amazed at the things they do every year.
they come up with new things every year mann!
phew.
so guess what's new?
haha!
Kelly and JUNYANG (!) and Taufik was invited to perform during the conference.
gee. how cool is that huh?
very. VERY cool. (:
JUNYANG ! ! !
haha.
i think his new hairstyle nice sia. (:
lol.
well, my camera phone is just too lousy la.
take pictures cant see.
cos too dark and too far.
GRRRR...
and we had this arm wrestling match.
haha den after that pastor derek and i forgot who went up to play.
it was so funny to see them arm wrestle.
lol.
yay. our church pastors rock! ((:
they're cool mann.
hoho.
and pastor kong started preaching at around 9+
yup so meaning most of the time, we spent the time praising and worshipping and enjoying performances and stuff like that.
haha. nice la. (:
ohmigosh.
this year's wristband has so many colours!!!
i want a black/green one.
haha havent get it yet.
=(
and i saw JOYCE! haha with shirley.
yup. hope she enjoyed the conference. (:
well well. tmr audrey and pb's running.
so im going down to support them. (:
im the only one in the cg.
so sad.
dont know why the rest cant go.
haii.
erm, so i guess this should be all?
well, tata.
. . .
on Christ the solid rock we will stand
all other ground is sinking sand
. . .

and I need to spend more time with You.
but I seem to have lost that feeling.
that touch, that Presence.
It seems that I've lost 'em.



Saturday, 3 June 2006
oh mann. i was very very late today lor.
was supposed to meet with doreen at tampines stadium at around 930am.
BUT guess what?
I reached more than an hour later!!
gosh. and i missed out cheering for pb and audrey and hendy and serene and brenda!!!
haii.
well, i DID NOT oversleep.
i woke up early, BUT BUT BUT...
i just fell asleep while doing dunno what la.
yeah. so i was late lor.
SORRY guys.
so we went to tm to eat after that.
and me clara and audrey cabbed down to expo for talentime.
THANKS CLARA!
haha, she lompang us. cos she rushing to support her friend.
yup. ((:
missed out quite alot on talentime.
first session was becos we didnt reach on time.
second session was because i was busy sms-ing!!
argh.
but nevermmind.
haii.
so anw, the 2nd-runner up for vocals category is as ex-kranjian wor.
haha. Abel. and i've confirmed that the person i saw on tv in sg idol is him la, cos he mentioned that he joined sg idol.
yeah so..
haha.
and i saw many familiar faces n church.
hoho. quite a few of my pri sch mates are in chc too.
coolness. (:
yups.
well, proceed onto the night session.
i tell you, it was great alright!
haha.
had special guest performance too.
and today, sun came. (:
everyone was screaming like nobody's business.
haha.
erm, was kindda tired today.
nearly fell asleep.
OOPS.
yeah, anw, i did close my eyes for a moment.
like 10secs?
but i DID NOT sleep ok?
too tired.
ya but after that 10sec sleep,im awake alrdy.
haha.
so went home with the 2kids lor.
the rest of the cg? erm..
oh, they went dinner-ing? if im not wrong.
=)

and I worship You Lord
my life in You restored
here is my life
make it Your sanctuary
for nobody else but Jesus only
You
are faithful and true
glorious Lord
all my life it is You I adore
You've touched my soul
completed my world
I surrender to You.


Sunday, 4 June 2006
Today is the day! :) :) :)
lol.
grand finale today.
wooohh~
couldnt reach at 8am, as usual.
bleahs. i wonder if i can reach by 8am when it's my turn to queue sia.
urgh. =X
cannot, keep saying that i musnt be late.
but haii.
girl, give yourself a slap ba.
*piak*
ok, pls dont be late la!!!
grrr.
so mad at myself.
had session4 in the morning, spelling bee in the afternoon and the FIFTH and final session in the night.
oh mann..
it rocked like nothing else la!
congrats to south cluster and jc/ci . (:
they are the champs again.
haha.
west. haii.
sad ar.
when will the west cluster win?
west!!! JIAYOU BA!!!
and me and yuling both said the same thing.
that this year we didnt close we a ROCKING praise song.
haha but it doesnt matter right?
yup.
emerge2006 rocked mann.
and yes, we're moving from glory to glory.
and really, next year, it's gonna be much more better again. (:
took lotsa photos.
hoho. x)
and went home with part of my cg and part of n290.
haha.
And the IDOL-WANNABE simply cannot accept the fact that emerge2006 is over.
heh, if you know who im talking about.
HAHA.
(:
well, it's over.
but i just hope that it'd indeed be a life-changing one for ME.
and I, myself have to play a part.
EMERGE2007 COMING NEXT YEAR ON the 31st MAY, 1-3JUNE. (:
Counting down...
:)

You, You are the God who will save
cling onto all that You say
and for always
You, covered my life with Your grace
darkness You've turned into day
when You gave Your all away.